27 June 2008


Life has been a bit mental the last few weeks. I'm trying to get everything ready for moving but am now surrounded by half packed boxes and stuff that is kind of sorted out. I'm trying to be so good and get rid of things but it is so hard. And it's also weird knowing that I have to work out what I really need for living and what I can do without because of moving in with my parents for a little while.

Running up and down the country so much is taking a strain on me too. I was up north for my great aunt's funeral, which was very sad but made me realise just how much I dislike religious babble and just how easy it is for someone to try and sum up someone's 91 year life into 30 seconds. I feel like I said goodbye to her a long time ago as she'd not really been herself for a couple of years. She was furiously independent and an amazing woman and I will miss her a lot. I still cannot get over the cutlery she gave me and Andy for our wedding (silver plated!) and I just find it odd that I will never be in that house again. It was also weird being there after my grandma moved anyway as they used to live next door to each other with no fence between the back gardens. As a child, I remember spending time there and running between the two houses. Auntie Marion's was smaller and filled with beautiful oak furniture and my mum is trying to find out what's happening to it in case I can buy it. I just hated Wednesday, filled with weird family memories and people trying to work out who I was and how to treat me now I'm not some child. Although I did find out a bit more about how my grandma and grandpa met, so that was good.

I'm up in Manchester again next week for a job interview. I'm pleased about it but nervous as hell to be having a chemistry interview again. At least I can get the train up instead of sitting for 5 hours on the coach.

I just feel a bit odd right now. Nothing feels right and I seem to be in some kind of limbo. The only stabilising thing I seem to have is knitting and even that seems to be confusing me right now. I think I'm going to run out of yarn for me jaywalker socks and I'm kind of planning my first decent knitting patterns after deciding to make alpaca lace scarfs as Christmas presents but now I feel at a bit of a loss as to whether I'm good enough to do it. I feel like a bit of a failure right now, without any real reason. Things just feel wrong. Maybe I just need to get my branching out scarf blocked and all will be well.

To cheer up this post, I will post a glorious photo of my finished yarn swap package. I love what I got my partner but I'm very bothered that I couldn't afford the postage so it went surface mail. Hopefully it will arrive in one piece.

09 June 2008

Lobster Arms

It's pretty refreshing not having to worry about uni. Instead I get to worry about moving house and finding a job. I've started the hell that is sorting out the random stuff in the bedroom and have already produced two huge bags of paper recycling. And that was only just the beginning of the vast piles of crap I have to sort out but hopefully it won't be too bad. Worst of all is trying to work out what boxes to buy for packing everything up.

Job seeking isn't going too bad, although it's not fun being signed on and having to write down all the crap you've done to look for a job. It's pretty annoying too as I'm officially still at uni for another couple of weeks.

In more interesting news, Andy's band Pythia shot their first music video on Saturday. It was fun as I got to sit there with the lead guitarist's girlfriend Lorna and knit. The knitting is going well and I am about half way through my second Pomatomus, nearly finished the jumper of uselessness (it is far too warm now) and have started a second adipose. I got quite a bit done on Saturday, although my arms do look like lobsters, or at least they did. They've eased off a lot now and I just keep finding bites instead! So, I thought I should share some photos:

The cast and crew (and hangers on)

Andy and Tim "rocking out"

I also baked French style macaroons, which came out ok but were a total faff! I haven't got any photos of them but I do have photos of the gorgeous oatmeal raisin cookies that I made that Andy has fallen in love with:

I'm also been buying more yarn but I do have an excuse. I needed to buy yarn for my Doctor Who jelly babies swap (hence the second adipose) and I decided to got for KraftyKoala as I'd been planning on buying some ever since I killed her during Hat Attack. So I grabbed a skein of Posy 4ply Merino/tencel and couldn't resist buying myself some in Waterlily as I've been planning on trying a tencel blend since Emma told me about it. So here are the lovely yarns, poorly photographed by me as I was trying to get the colours accurate.



So back to the slog of filling in applications and sorting out paperwork and stuff as I want to have a nice day of nothing tomorrow to celebrate my birthday, although the main celebrations are tonight at Bloomsbury Bowling with the knitting group and a few others!

03 June 2008

Tagged for a meme

Well, I was tagged by Justine so thought I should do this sometime.

'The rules of the game get posted at the beginning. Each player answers the questions about themselves. At the end of the post, the player then tags 5-6 people and posts their names, then go to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know they’ve been tagged and asking them to read your blog.

Let the person who tagged you know when you’ve posted your answer.'

1. What was I doing ten years ago?
OK, so 1998. That would be pre-Andy. I was in 2nd year of high school (I went to an independent school in Stockport) so I would very likely have been sitting end of term exams round about now. Or revising for them at least. I was a bit of a goody-goody at school and did sillily well in my school exams. I probably also had a crush on the guy I had a crush on for about 5 years on and off. But I was way too much of a swot for him. Gah....thinking back, I do remember how much I was teased about this guy as it seemed to be public knowledge that I liked him. It was also around the same time I was getting a lot of crap of some of the other guys at school too. I was a sucker for this.

What else happened in 1998? My grandma died that summer. That was pretty horrible but expected. I wish I hadn't had to see her so ill before hand either.

2. What are 5 things on my to-do list for today (not in any particular order):
Go to the job centre (yay!)
Do coding for enrichment task
Apply for jobs
Sort some website stuff out for my parents
Tidy the kitchen

3. Snacks I enjoy:
chocolate, biscuits, cake...all the bad stuff!

4. Things I would do if I were a billionaire:
Buy the perfect house and spend money on making it more perfect. Set up a yarn store that would sell gorgeous yarn, cupcakes and tea and have computers to use for Ravelry and plenty of space for knitting. Make sure all my friends and family were comfortable for money. Give money to cat charities. Adopt more cats (I want to be a mad cat lady). Give money to Pythia for stuff they need like in-ear monitors. Donate IWBs to the second placement school as they deserve them. Travel a lot and probably buy a second home in somewhere like San Francisco.

There's tons more that I could do and there's a few of them I plan to do even without the billionaire malarkey.

5. Places I've lived:
Bramhall, Cheadle Hulme, South Kensington, East Dulwich - I haven't really moved round a lot at all.

6. People I want to know more about:

In other news, Andy has been made redundant.